422 - The Trials of Adam Amari

Adam doesn’t have much trouble finding his way back to the Dark Drifters’ home in the Pleiades. He doesn’t have much trouble finding Quinnar Gentry, their leader.

“Hey Quinn,” he calls with a friendly wave.

The boisterous leader of the group - Adam isn’t sure whether to think of them as space hippies, space pirates, a street gang, or something else entirely - is talking to a few of his fellows, and breaks off at the greeting.

“Haha, it’s Adam Amari,” he says. “Concord. Right? You fooled me good, last time you and your friends came here. But fortunately all is forgiven, for I am magnanimous and merciful and all those other good things. So I am willing to consider you a friend! In that benevolent spirit, why have you come to visit us today?”

Adam grins. “I’d like to arrest you for stealing a spaceship.”

Quinn looks over his shoulder at the gaggle of ships parked on the outskirts of the Dark Drifters’ habitat. “Which one?”

Adam waves his hands quickly, indicating the misunderstanding. “No, no. It’s one you didn’t actually steal.”

The alien turns back and looks steadily down at Adam. “You wish to arrest me… for a crime I have not committed… why?”

“I want to fight against the Concordance.”

Quinn wobbles his head in confusion. “Adam Amari, I am having a very hard time deciphering your motives here.”

Over the next half-hour or so, Adam explains the problem Somber has laid on his shoulders, and his proposed solution for that problem. He feels confident as he watches Quinn’s smile steadily broaden.

At the end, Adam holds out a hand, ready to shake. “What do you say? Is it a deal?”

Quinnar Gentry extends a hand half-way, then pauses. With a glint in his eye, he asks a question. “What are my full titles?”

Oh god.

Adam thinks back, trying his best not to reveal that he’s thinking. He wants to do this without consulting his Shard, Tau. He’s asking a lot of Quinn and it’s only fair that Quinn want to know whether Adam sees him as a person or just a tool of convenience. Has he paid attention?

“You’re the Illustrious Supernova of the Universe…” he begins fitfully. Seeing Quinn’s brief spasm of disappointment jars his memory. “Most Illustrious. Sorry. I guess there’s other illustrious supernovae.”

There was another one he’s forgetting. “The right honorable Quinnar Gentry…”

Quinn sighs, with a slump of his shoulders.

It comes to him. The Void Keys - the tokens of teleportation he created - “Legendary Navigator of the Starways!”

“Close enough,” the alien concedes with a satisfied smile.

Adam winces, but smiles back. “To be fair, you only said it once. Even in school they repeat stuff we have to memorize.”

Quinn holds up a finger and looks down sternly at his guest. “You have said many things to the Champions of Night. For one so young, you are quite convinced of your own wisdom. So now it is time for your esteemed and reliable senior, namely myself, to educate you.”

He leads the way back to his personal habitat. Adam takes a seat and listens, honestly curious about what this strange man has to say.

“Titles are important. You should appreciate the value of titles. In fact, you should acquire some for yourself, and begin promoting them.”

Adam winces in a combination of humility and embarrassment. “I don’t know if I want any flashy titles, though.”

Quinnar Gentry makes a chiding sound, clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth. “Well then you should stop doing all these legendary things that merit them.”

Adam purses his lips. He can’t say Quinn is wrong. He can’t say he likes Quinn being right.

The alien Captain keeps speaking. “So I am going to teach you about titles and ostentation and putting on a show, because that is what you are proposing to do and I will not allow you to do it sloppily.”

“Let us begin with my titles. The Most Illustrious Supernova of the Universe. I earned this by using portals to bring the light of several suns onto the battlefield during a particularly, hmm, shall we say inconvenient moment for me and my people. Our enemies were seared, blinded, annoyed, et cetera et cetera.”

“Legendary Navigator of the Space-ways. I am of course responsible for finding us a home in this star cluster. The smugglers don’t want to mess with us, because I am of course the Most Illustrious Supernova of the Universe and I came with a long list of accomplishments I made up myself.”

Quinn points two fingers at Adam. “That is a lesson for you. Make yourself big in the minds of your audience. You were very self-effacing during the trial at the temple. Many of us simply did not know what to make of you. You cannot afford such confusion with the Concordance. Tell them who you want to be, and then make your best attempt to be that.”

Adam resists out of habit. “But shouldn’t people be swayed by the points I’m making at the trial? That this is wrong?”

Quinn sighs with muted impatience. “How long have you been wielding emotions as power and how have you still not realized how powerful emotions are, Adam?”

Adam leans back in his seat in shock. That… is true, isn’t it. People have logic, people can be logical, but the virtues, the feelings, the everything that isn’t rationality in peoples’ hearts still holds sway over them.

He remembers his mother’s stories about irrational customers, and his father’s tales of criminals who wouldn’t stop doing what they did no matter how little sense it made. He’s drawn such strength from his own feelings, and seen his teammates’ feelings inspire them. He always thought of this as a positive, but…

“People really will just resist what I have to say, won’t they,” he says finally. “It doesn’t matter how strong my point is.”

Quinn tut-tuts. In a flash, he summons a Continuum Sword to hand. “Your point must be strong. But you must get past their guard. So I will show you! But bear in mind I am the best swordsman in the universe, so do not hope to prevail in the face of even a simple demonstration of principles.”

He beckons, and Adam stands and conjures an energy blade. He’s unsure of how this will play out, but he wants to learn. One thing he’s pretty sure of is that Quinnar Gentry isn’t the best swordsman in the universe, though.

Quinn darts in, but telegraphs his approach, and Adam has enough talent to knock the incoming blade aside.

“First strike,” Quinn explains. “Straightforward. Obvious. You’re ready for it. Because changing your attitude means changing you. People hate to be changed, don’t they.”

“I guess,” Adam concedes.

Quinn’s blade flickers about, creating a distracting and chaotic pattern of slashes. Yet he never comes close to a real strike. It’s all just feints.

“Second strike. All style, no substance. You’re distracted for the moment, but you can see the hollowness of it. You haven’t convinced anyone, only briefly impressed them.”

Adam can see where this is going. And when Quinn brings his sword into play again, with a few smart feints and then a thrust into Adam’s guard, he can at least see it coming, even if he lacks the talent to turn it aside. No matter. Quinn isn’t making a lethal strike. The sword point veers off, and he and Adam face each other.

“Third strike. You see it now, don’t you. Get through their defenses, then the critical blow.”

Adam frowns. He lowers his sword, and looks up at Quinn with worried eyes. “I feel like that’s just phony, though. Isn’t it? I don’t want to lie to make my point. I want to bring Truth to people. And I don’t want to be a braggart or a show-off.”

Quinn tilts his head curiously. “Am I a braggart and a show-off, Adam Amari?”

Adam has to chuckle, even as his cheeks burn with embarrassment at what he says next. “I mean, kinda, yeah.”

Quinn takes absolutely no offense. His gleaming smile grows broader, in fact. “I am all those things and more! Yet you came to me originally and you come to me now. If I wasn’t those things, would I be so useful to your plans?”

Adam has to admit Quinn has a point. But he won’t admit it to anyone but himself. Still, the other man can see it in his eyes, and grins a shark-like grin.

“And that is another lesson.” The Captain straightens up. “It’s heroic and respectable, even expected, for you to boast of your exploits. Provided you have exploits, that is. You see, this isn’t just about swaying people, or opening their emotional defenses to make your point. Boasting is its own virtue.”

Adam looks up in surprise. The man has thought a surprising amount about this.

Quinn goes on. “People love their icons. Among my people, we have four kinds. The Leaves in the Wind, the Roots of the Trees, the Eaters of Others’ Meals, and the Hunting Hawks.”

Adam can hear the alien words being translated through two Shards in communion. Still, he becomes briefly curious about what life must have been life for Quinn on his home world.

“And we have two. Heroes and villains. People who are famous. Or notorious. People who uphold the status quo, and the ones who fight against it. People you hold in awe and respect for their deeds.”

Quinn nods. “Boasting of good deeds makes people believe you will perform more. Boasting of cleverness makes people expect cleverness. They will confuse themselves when they meet you, because they will try to imagine what you will do instead of watching for it. Boasting is a promise, and a shield.”

Adam takes all this in. “I guess I see your point. And I guess I could do it…”

Quinn grins his flashiest grin yet. “And would you do it if I hadn’t brought out a sword, and talked myself up, and instead just given you a dry textbook recital of propaganda techniques?”

Adam actually laughs at that. “No. I don’t think you would have been so persuasive. Okay. I get you. So, what’s my next move?”

Quinn puffs himself up, clearly satisfied with his victory. “Adam Amari, you need a better look.”

Oh - a costume. Adam realizes that’s what he means. And then–

Oh god.

Keri.

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Adam is home.

“Moooom!” he calls out.

From the kitchen, he hears his mother’s voice. “You don’t have to shout, Adam, I can hear you.”

Just as loudly, in case she doesn’t hear him: “I’m gonna hang out with Keri for awhile. I’m gonna ask her to make a new costume.”

“Bring her something nice. Be appreciative of the effort you’re asking for,” his mother calls back. “There’s some Shir Berenj in the refrigerator.”


Keri is in the Dominican Republic. Specifically she is attending a baseball game in Santiago. She’s enjoying it when she’s not reminded that cameras will periodically find her face and put it up on the Jumbotron for everyone to see.

The price of being a celebrity.

She finds Adam sitting down next to her, handing her a paper bag that feels chilled to the touch. She blinks at him, and peeks inside, and beams at what she sees: chilled rice pudding.

“Thank you!” she exclaims.

Adam winces in embarrassment. “It’s because I came to ask you a favor.”

Keri blinks at that. “Favor? I’m always happy to help. What do you need?”

Adam explains, and Keri listens. Her smile grows wider and wider as she realizes what she gets to do. Not solve someone’s problems by punching. Not suffer, watching others get hurt. Not deal with a new crisis. No. She gets to make a costume.

“Oh mah gawwwwwwd!” she exclaims, and hugs Adam enthusiastically.

It’s right then that the cameras pan back to her, and thousands of baseball fans at the stadium see the two of them with the words “KISS CAM” highlighted.


Keri is back at her house. Adam has been invited along.

Both of them have recovered their poise from earlier. The Kiss Cam people were disappointed that nothing of the sort happened, and a thousand young men, and quite a few women, struggled with their own mixed feelings about the outcome. Already her phone is buzzing with questions from publicists and fellow celebrities she’s in touch with. She’s ignoring it.

Adam can still remember seeing his own face writ large on the Jumbotron, and watching his expression of happiness dissolve into shock. Seeing himself the way so many other people are seeing him.

He wonders if this is what it’ll be like, putting on a trial.

He hopes to god it’s not.

But Keri is talking, and he struggles to follow.

“Right, soooo you’re putting on a big show and you need a special outfit, of course. Novel outfits catch the eye. They tell your audience something special is happening. And if you’re going big you have to dress the part. So listen, this is why I need to know, what kind of mood, what kind of vibe, what kind of je ne sais quoi you want to project.”

“What… are my options?” Adam asks helplessly.

Keri is undaunted, and ticks options off on her fingers. “You’re the cunning double agent turning on the Concordance. You’re the shining beacon of accountability, revealing their atrocities. You’re an impartial lawmaker, meting out justice as you must. The light to Quinnar Gentry’s darkness. A partner–”

She realizes suddenly. “Oh! He should have a costume.”

Adam thinks back to how flamboyantly the Most Illustrious Supernova of the Universe has dressed in their previous encounters. “I think Quinn’s doing okay there,” he suggests. “Let’s focus on me.”

“Right! So this is where you figure out your pose - I don’t mean like a physical pose, although you’ll have to practice some of those, comes with the outfit don’t ya know - but hmm, your style, your atmosphere, your verve!”

Adam already feels bad roping his friend into this and being unable to express himself. Now he can’t even give Keri what she’s asking for, to do what he asked her to do. “I don’t think I have verve, Keri.”

Exasperated, the young woman jokingly slaps him - light as can be - on the side of the head. “You goofball.”

She taps him lightly on the forehead. “In there is what you know you need. Share it with me. Use your power!”

Adam looks around. “My parents said no powers in the house. But I guess this isn’t my house…”

He looks back at her. “Are you sure?”

Keri’s smile is warm and welcoming. “I’m sure. Come on. Use your powers for fun for a change.”


Adam is getting used to the expanded range of psychic powers the Concordance Shard possesses. It’s not just aura reading or emotion sensing. Everything, up to and including direct mental contact, is a possibility.

It scares him. And it bothers him that the Concordance hasn’t made it easier for Agents to do what he’s doing now, because it’s awesome.

He’s brought himself and Keri into a shared psychic space. Floating at the center is a mannequin - a representation of Adam himself. With a flick of her wrist, Keri is able to throw clothing onto it, tear some or all of it back off, change the colors or textures, and otherwise rewrite any part of the outfit that doesn’t work.

Aside from that, she’s able to read his thoughts, or as much as he’s allowing her to. He still doesn’t feel comfortable suddenly being on camera earlier, for example, and he’s privately glad he chose a plastic mannequin to stand in for him, rather than having a duplicate of him as Keri strips off every stitch of cloth. He’s not a kid any more, as much as he sometimes still feels like one.

She’s starting to get the vibe, and is speaking back to him so he understands his own thoughts a bit better. “You’re not trying to be an arbiter or a lawmaker or an authority. You want to be a messenger. Your real audience isn’t the Concordance but the people they’ve affected. You want to show them what’s going on and you’re using the trappings of the Concordance to get away with it. So mind you, obviously this stuff is human-centric, I don’t know any alien color theory, but y’know, you can work around that by broadcasting your emotions or whatever, right? Be the outfit. Make it serve you…”

At its core, the outfit is a bodysuit that only gives the appearance of a separate top and bottom. The top has diagonal striped lines of many colors - “sort of a rainbow effect to convey movement,” Keri explains. The bottom is black, with barely visible gray accents.

Around that, she’s chosen to add a brown duster, a long coat that reminds Adam of old Westerns he sometimes glimpses on television. There’s sturdy boots of the same brown color, suitable for travel. There’s a rainbow-colored scarf, matching the pattern on the top. The outfit is rounded out with a messenger bag, slung over one shoulder.

Keri explains more about what she’s doing. “The outfit suggests humility. You’re equipped for travel and hardship and rugged times. The messenger bag means you’re bringing something to people - you’re a courier of truth, carrying your message inside. I just liked the scarf so I added it, but I think it works in the theme. Straight lines denote conformity or rigidity, so here we’re suggesting that you’re something different and diverse with the diagonal lines. Not too much, though, it’ll distort the overall look if we overdo it. Accents, reminders, on a couple of the pieces to reinforce the motif.”

She takes a moment from the work and looks back at Adam. “A hero costume or an outfit or anything you wear has to be be fit for purpose. It has to do the the thing it’s meant to do. Fine. But most importantly, it has to get you into the mindset of what you’re doing. To get you to feel like you belong in that outfit. Change your attitude. That’s the power of costumes. It’s like wearing music.”

Adam looks it over. It’s not too flashy. As superhero suits go, it’s downright conservative. But he could feel comfortable wearing it, which is probably an important factor.

“Okay,” he says with a smile. “So how do I get this made in real life?”

Keri grins. “You leave that to me. Go work out the rest of your plans. I think the others will probably want to help you too. Why not ask them?”

Adam’s mouth puckers into an uncertain, unhappy frown.

“Are you sure that’s okay? I’ve already asked a lot of everybody.”

Keri walks across the psychic space and leans down, resting a comforting hand on his shoulder.

Mano, you think so little about how much you give and worry so much about how much you are going to take. It’s okay to be a little selfish sometimes.”

She draws back and smacks a fist into her palm. “Besides. You are putting the screw to those space bastards. Que apero!”

Adam feels his smile coming back. “Thank you, Keri. If you want in, you’re invited. If not, you’ve done a lot for me already and I’m grateful.”

Keri punches his shoulder gently, encouragingly. “Wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

Adam feels like this is all going to work out. Right up until his teenage apprehension explodes as Keri reminds him, “I’m gonna have to take your measurements by the way.”

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Adam didn’t adopt every part of Keri’s suggested costume. He’s not sure about the scarf - wearing one reminds him of his younger days, which he still finds somehow embarrassing to think about. He’s not sure about the long coat, especially in space where there’s no real weather for a coat to help with. And he’s supposed to be representing the Concordance in this Tribunal, so he can’t really deviate too far from their standard look.

He settles for an aviator jacket over his normal Concord duds, along with the messenger bag. Sure, he can bubble stuff he intends to carry around, but it made his parents feel much better to pack food into a physical container. His father didn’t quite put a revolver in there as well, but Adam could feel the impulse of protection that the man radiated.

All too soon, Adam realizes it’s time. He takes a breath, says goodbye to his family, and heads for the stars.


Keri, Quinn, and others have helped Adam workshop the sales pitch for the Tribunal. He hates thinking of it in those terms, but that’s what it really is. It’s an advertisement, meant to get people to tune in and watch so he can expose the Concordance to the widest possible audience.

Now he opens an official channel and broadcasts the announcement. The gist of it is that Concordance shards have been stolen in the past, the culprits have been identified, and Adam is going to hold Tribunal for a suspect in a certain location.

The very idea that someone could stop the empowerment of a Concordance agent is a shot across the organization’s metaphorical bow. It pierces their pose of perfection, making them look vulnerable. Pairing this with “we got the guy” makes Adam look good and sounds like it solves the problem - at first. But did he? Tune in and find out.

The message is beamed outward, through affective broadcasts that get transformed into radio and hyperwave and electro-telepathy and a dozen other means of communication. Relays and rebroadcasters, sensing a story, share it with their own audiences. Beings outside the Concordance’s normal sphere share it with other interested parties. By the time Adam is ready to go, the story has spread across a noticeable chunk of the Milky Way galaxy.

The Dark Drifters have donated one of their habitats to act as a venue for the trial. Now it sits, in its own little bubble, in high orbit around Somber’s frozen home world. The glow of the Concordance barrier that keeps the planet frozen in time is visible in the background. Indeed, some of the habitat was deliberately removed to ensure a good view of the silent planet and its shield.

Adam formally begins the Tribunal. It’s just him and Quinn. The Dark Drifter is standing in a zone of compulsion, meant to elicit Truth from him. That will be unnecessary here, but it’s good for “optics” - how things look to the audience.

Who else could be here? Adam’s friends, the people who’ve traveled with him? All good people, but not members of the Concordance nor involved in its business. The Dark Drifters and other Champions of Night? They’re supposedly the perpetrators.

The universe is watching. He’s on the biggest Jumbotron ever.

“Quinnar Gentry–”

There’s the subtlest of coughs from his prisoner.

Really? This, now?

Fine.

Adam draws a breath, and tries again. “The Most Illustrious Supernova of the Universe, the Legendary Navigator of the Space-ways, the Right Honorable Quinnar Gentry…”

The other man responds with a bright beaming grin.

“… I charge you with the theft of Concordance shards, bound for future Agents, and have enacted this Tribunal in order for you to hear your case.”

Tribunal is not really something Adam knows a lot about. He studied up on it, and the gist of it seemed to be that “Tribunal” meant “Concordance Agents get to do whatever they want as long as it seems fair”. So he’s copying Earth customs, which he knows a lot about courtesy of his dad the police sergeant.

“Uh, how do you plead? Guilty or not guilty?”

“Not guilty!” announces Quinn with a dazzling smile. He too knows the universe is watching it, and is going to milk this moment for all it’s worth.

Adam moves to speak, but the slightest of head shakes from Quinn makes him pause. He makes telepathic contact - What?

Let the audience ooh and ahh here! the Captain declares mentally. This is the first big turning point in the trial.

Adam frowns a little, but does as Quinn suggests. A few moments are enough. “Not guilty, eh? Then I shall present the evidence against you!”

The next part was both the most critical, and the most personally vexing to Adam. The Concordance had long ago mastered the conversion of emotion into other forms of energy and back again. He could literally broadcast Truth and have people experience it as such, if they were equipped to receive it. Not everybody in the audience would get it - people tuning in via conventional broadcast tech, for example - but enough would.

At the same time, he and Quinn had cooked up a cover story that wasn’t technically true. So Adam must navigate a verbal labyrinth of his own devising. Any slip here will give the game away to trillions of sentient beings.

No pressure, he told himself.

“When I was… selected… to join the Concordance, it almost didn’t happen.”

Adam relates his fateful first encounter with the alien Blockheads and their leader, Cracklesnap. At the time, they hadn’t been as powerful, but they were still strong enough to try and separate a newly-minted Agent from their Concordance Shard. The encounter had damaged the goal of their extraction attempt: Sol Gamma-2.

Adam wasn’t sure how much of that damage had affected his subsequent career as Concord. Maybe it had made him less powerful, or less in control of his power, than someone else. Or maybe it had somehow freed him of the Concordance’s influence in some way.

No matter what had happened, he still missed Sol.

“I escaped them, and went on to act as a hero on my home planet. But then I went into space again to chase after the Blockheads. And sure enough, I found the being who had tried to abduct me before, on the same ship he’d used.”

He points, to the Blockhead craft floating serenely in space. “That ship. We fought Cracklesnap aboard that ship, but then its engine took off randomly. We got out–”

This is the part where Adam’s Truth must falter. Quinn interrupts, with perfect timing. “My people also lost their sources of empowerment to these ‘Blockhead’ aliens, in ships like those. When a Blockhead ship like that one entered our space, of course we investigated.”

This much was True. Unsaid was that Adam and his team had brought that ship there, still posing as star racers in search of answers.

This meeting happened during “412 - Pursuit THrough the Pleiades” – Ed.

“And you admit you got hold of Cracklesnap’s ship?” Adam asks, trying his best to sound surprised. He’d brought the ship to Quinn himself.

“I did!” Quinn exclaims. He thrusts a hand out in a dramatic flourish, bows his head, and uses his other hand to pull down the brim of the extra-special hat he wore for just this occasion. “For after all, justice had to be done.”

This was True in the same way a thread could easily pass through the eye of a needle.

Adam changes his tone to curiosity, hoping to god he’s selling this effectively. He’s done his best to tune the emotional wavelengths of the broadcast to include only Truth, but if anything else is leaking out, he could be in real trouble here.

“And what is it about this place, where we are, that made it so ideal to hide a ship?”

Quinn’s feigned surprise would win him an Oscar on Earth.

“Why, surely you’ve noticed! We’re on a planet time-locked by the Concordance itself. Nobody else but they could get in here. Surely some disaster happened here, and I can’t imagine why they’d seal it away. Perhaps you know - you’re a Concordance Agent, and surely you all know how these things happen. But there is surely no more secure location than here to store such an important secret.”

We got 'em now, kid! exults Quinn over the mental link.

Adam wishes, briefly, that at least someone within the Concordance had his back right now. Anyone, really. He’s pretty sure this is where the fighting is going to start.


A conference of Concordance Coordinators has convened.

“Amnesty for prisoners on this list has been approved,” intones one. The list they share is made up of the dregs of space. Pirates, cutthroats, would-be warlords, and bloodthirsty fiends are all represented. The one thing they have in common is hate for the Concordance and all its Agents.

“Prisoners are to be deposited in a special administrative zone,” another indicates. The location is, of course, Somber’s sealed-off home planet.

“Prisoners will be granted fueled and armed craft in order to safely return to their respective homes,” adds a third.

“Yes. Mercy is indicated,” concludes the first.


“So what you’re saying, Quinnar Gentry–”

“The Right Honorable Quinnar Gentry, if you please.”

“The prisoner will not interrupt!” Adam declares loudly, with a flourish of his own hand.

You’re really getting into the spirit of this, Quinn enthuses mentally. Keep it up!

Adam resumes. “You’re saying that you have possession of this ship - which is evidence of a crime against the Concordance - because you were also harmed?”

“It is so!” Quinn calls out. “Examine it for yourself if you don’t believe me.”

Adam actually smirks. “I think that I will do just that.”

It doesn’t take long for Adam to access the ship. He and Quinn rehearsed this part a few times. And sure enough, Adam is able to summon up what he needs from the ship. A technical readout of the systems used to neutralize and corral Concordance Shards - detailed enough to be persuasive, not detailed enough so that the whole universe can replicate them. Evidence from the ship’s flight logs that they targeted newly minted Concordance Agents. And Cracklesnap’s own boasting, as he fought with Adam, that he had the capability described.

This is still a Tribunal. The matter in question must be resolved.

Adam rounds the final turn in his prepared speech. “Well. The Right Honorable Quinnar Gentry, you are worthy of that name in this one respect. You have told me the Truth, and delivered back to me evidence the Concordance wants. We have all seen that the Blockheads, not you, were responsible for the abduction of Shards. And I have evidence - which I cannot reveal on broadcast - of where those Shards went. Suffice it to say that it is within the authority of the Concordance to pursue. As administrator of this Tribunal, I retain that authority to myself.”

Adam knows he technically can’t do that, but it’d take the intervention of a Concordance Coordinator to stop him. And they’d have to come here. If they did, the jig would be up for them.

“I therefore find you… not guilty!”

Across a million star systems, the audience of the Tribunal reacts in a million ways. Conversations and machinations begin.

We did it! Adam exults. Quinn wants to grin back, but he can’t show his real emotions, not just yet.

In the space around the Tribunal’s ‘courthouse’ and the neighboring Blockhead craft, a dozen strange ships warp in. A hundred.

A thousand.

Ten thousand.

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Adam hadn’t really considered the possibility of a war-fleet. He thought, y’know, maybe a delegation of Coordinators would show up, flanked by a bunch of Agents, like when he’d gone to rescue Jordan from Orion Schema. And he’d had powerful friends along for that.

It didn’t matter though. The most important first step of his plan didn’t depend on who he was facing. It was gonna happen regardless of who showed up.

He swallowed a lump in his throat, and gave his instruction.

“Tau. Shunt all of my excess fear into the storage system. Let me know when it overloads.”

Understood, Adam.

“Get outta here,” he orders Quinn, in a voice far hoarser and rougher than he thought he had in him. He discovers the Dark Drifter was already on the way out, along with the Blockhead ship, before he even started speaking.

The warships are moving.

That’s weird, a part of him thinks. There’s supposed to be a stasis bubble all around here–

Oh. Right. The Coordinators. They sent the fleet. Of course they’d let them move.

The depth of the Concordance’s corruption feels like it should be obvious to Adam by now.

He struggles to remember the plan.

No - that plan was for much smaller stakes than he was fighting for.

The fear is already threatening to overwhelm his reason, only to be drained methodically away, like water down a drain. It feels weird - artificial - and it is. It feels like being bathed in fire, and showering in ice-cold water.

In a moment of lucidity, he understands Somber’s point about negative emotion, and Quinnar Gentry’s advice about boasting. He remembers something Quinn said.

How have you still not realized how powerful emotions are?

He remembers realizing why Jordan would make such a powerful agent - because she wants to be one.

Quinn realizes the power of emotion. He just doesn’t use it. When things get bad, he runs. Nothing makes him care about anything more than his own little trailer park of a space habitat, and the handful of people who live there.

Adam didn’t want to be an Agent. Some part of him doesn’t. But there’s a planet full of people down there, Somber’s people, who have been let down in the worst possible way.

He cares about this. He can’t run.

The warships have detected him, and open fire. Too late, they discover the nature of this place - their beams and torpedoes fall motionless the moment they pass out of the bubble that lets time pass for them.

The smartest of the fleet commanders realize the needed tactic. To kill Adam, they just have to get closer. Ship after ship figures it out, and converges on him. Other ships aren’t as quick on the science, but obey the pack instinct to follow the leader. The thousands of ships don’t betray any sign of large-scale coordination, but their numbers more than make up for it.

With a huge wave of relief, pushing back the choppy surges of fear, Adam realizes he doesn’t have to blow anyone up here. He just needs to pop ten thousand bubbles. The warships will freeze in place, and he can figure something out later.

But now the ships are coming. They’re threatening to englobe him - and their bubbles will overlap with his. Their weapons will work. The fear returns. And with it, his instinct for self-defense pushes itself to the top.

How do I stay safe? his mammalian subconscious asks itself. Fight or flee–

The fear drains, and he’s painfully lucid in the aftermath. He’s never had alcohol, but he imagines - no, this isn’t like being drunk. This is like being anti-drunk, he thinks. This is extended, painful sobriety.

He has the soul spears, the ones he used in the fight against the Champions of Night. He could still use those - not against Agents, but against the bubbles, and through them, the crews of the warships.

Adam used these to power up his fusion with Armiger in “412 - Pursuit Through the Pleiades” – Ed.

He doesn’t have the time or energy to mime throwing a spear, not now. He just flings his arms wide, and dozens of them launch in every direction, like a porcupine spraying quills in a cartoon. Astral threads trail behind them, ready to draw extracted energy into an accumulator.

The spears hit - the anger, the contempt, the seething fury of the crew is drawn out - the emotion flows back into the accumulator. Adam’s own shields are bolstered. Just in time. As the numerous time-bubbles envelop and overlap, dozens of the speared ships open fire. And Adam’s fear returns.

He teleports by instinct, finding refuge inside one of the warships of the enemy.

Inside, the alien crew see him. They look at each other. They look back. They sneer. They draw weapons.

Adam, himself again, teleports out.

His feeling that this fleet has no central leadership or loyalty is confirmed. The ships who tracked his teleport open fire on their luckless fellow, the ship where he briefly took refuge. As the bolts begin to penetrate its hull, Adam launches an attack on the time-bubble surrounding it. The ship, no longer immune to the Concordance curse of timelessness, freezes in place.

One down, ten thousand to go.

More spears. More shielding. More bubbles popped. But Adam realizes that there’s simply too many ships, and they can englobe him too quickly, for this strategy to work.

He’s starting to believe that it would be rational to experience some fear.

He’s bitten off more than he can chew. This is where he’s gonna die. It’s just logical.

Adam. Accumulated fear is at 75% of containment maximum.

It’s rational to leave, he tells himself.

The universe is watching what he does next.

The universe is waiting for hope that justice can be done.

He wants to cry - just stop time for everyone and everything and break down sobbing.

He wants to be 15, to be a boy, to be back in high school and lug around a heavy backpack full of useless books he’s already memorized. He wants to go over to Keri’s house and try more of her cooking. Maybe not get measured for clothes because that turned awkward at record speed. But the rest is okay.

He wants to be answering questions for his little sister. He wants to hear how his parents’ days went, and tell them he did chores and see their faces light up.

He knows he’s supposed to face his fear. It’s something every parent says, sooner or later. Don’t be afraid.

He can’t do that.

He can’t do this alone.

Adam. Accumulated fear is at 0.04% of containment maximum.

Adam is startled out of his imminent panic attack. Even as he flings new spears, tears at new bubbles, he has time to question. “Tau? How’d that happen?”

He feels another presence, and turns.

Floating in space nearby is a strange, alien figure. They’re wearing the traditional garb of the Concordance Coordinators. Adam can dimly make out some kind of affective gadget - the emotional technology he’s learning to use - that’s been attached to him.

It’s a much, much larger containment vessel.

“Who are you?” he manages to call out, as he teleports, dodging and spearing.

“Coordinator Dentry,” the visitor answers. “Perseus Schema.”

That makes even less sense, and it made no sense whatsoever. The Concordance Coordinators should be opposing him.

“Why are you here?”

The alien responds with what Adam can feel is a smile.

“Because your cause is honorable, Adam Amari.”

The universe is watching. But not just watching.

Adam starts to feel tears rushing to his eyes.

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Adam knows a word, “ineffable”. It means something that can’t be expressed or explained. And if there’s anyone that have been acting ineffable for as long as Adam has known them, it’s the effing Coordinators of the Concordance.

Dentry isn’t acting against the incoming ships. But he’s here. And he’s helping. Well, it seems like he’s helping. Adam is still too unsure of the stranger’s motives to try and understand why.

Adam is more sure of the motives of the next person who warps in. It’s Keri, in costume and definitely with her game face on. It takes her one look to take in the thousands of ships bearing down on Adam’s position, and to figure out what’s at stake.

“What are you doing here?” Adam demands of her, as he builds up power for his strikes.

“You called me,” she replies, as casually as though he’d picked up a phone and invited her over.

“I didn’t call you,” he says, his fear now mingling with mounting confusion.

He feels calmer when he sees her turn, and her hardened mask of determination turns into a kindly smile.

“Well, you should have. But I’m here now. Okay?”

Adam can feel his heart leap into his throat. He tries to swallow it down, and can’t.

“What do you need?” she asks, again all business.

He tries to summarize his current battle tactics succinctly, mindful of how tight time is right now. “If they gang up on us successfully, we lose.”

Keri hears, and gives a sharp nod of understanding. “Alright. I know what to do.”

Coordinator Dentry calls out as she readies herself to fly away. “Take this, child.” And he flings a bubble at her.

Immediately Adam is worried. And then - he sees the Coordinator has given her a space-time neutralization bubble, the same thing that lets him work within the timelock around this planet. If she hadn’t had it, she’d have been frozen in time the minute she left Adam’s presence.

Keri, however, does not know this, and flashes a look back at Adam. He in turn looks briefly and appreciatively at Dentry, then nods in affirmation to Keri. It’s okay, you’re good.


The Lamb streaks from ship to ship, through the overlapping and interlocking bubbles the Concordance’s masters have granted their attack dogs, and past them into empty space.

She’s actually less confident about her plan than she seemed. Get these things away from Adam. But in this place? With this weird Concordance space-time shit?

She’ll just have to try it.

It’ll probably hurt. Everything hurts when she does it enough.

She has a question she has to ask Adam. Not “who was that weirdo with you”, although she wants to ask that too.

Adam didn’t consciously call her. But she felt his fear, out of nowhere. She felt his need. She felt how small he saw himself in this moment. And with the help of the Void Key he invented, she came here to be with him.

But…

Not now.

She readies herself. She feels for her power. She takes a long, deep breath.

She becomes the conduit of a black hole that those mysterious aliens made her to be.

They’d abducted her and experimented on her, she thought. They never explained themselves. They didn’t apologize. They just transformed her.

They made me this thing without asking. But they can’t tell me how to use it.

And now she exerts an inexorable gravitational pull on every ship in this part of space.

It’s a fraction of a fraction of a percent at first. The enemy ships’ engines compensate for wilder fluctuations as a part of normal operation. But the pull doesn’t stop.

Keri tenses her muscles. She holds onto the power, tries as hard as she can not to let it get out of her control. She feels blood vessels pulsating. She feels her heart pumping. She feels a ringing in her ears. Her mouth becomes dry. Her head starts to hurt.

One by one, the ships begin to exert thrust to compensate for the pull. Attitude thrusters come online and start firing. A few of the smaller ships actually rotate in place and engage their main engines. And still the pull grows.

She was right. It hurts. It really hurts.

She hears her mother’s voice in her mind, telling her to take good care of herself, telling her not to overdo it. Her feelings are ready with everything she’d say. I know, mama, I know. You’re worried about me and you think I’m going to be overconfident some day. You don’t want your baby to suffer anything. I know.

She hears her mother’s silent plea to just come home and be a wonderful daughter.

But mama, I have to do this.

The ships are now being dragged, in spite of their best exertions, into a spherical shell around her position. The weaker ones are starting to buckle.

She can feel her power wanting to devour her.

She knows why it hurts.

The strain of her power isn’t to draw out more energy. It’s to keep that door shut, and only let through what she needs.

Someday, she’ll screw it up and bad things will happen.

Someday, Adam might have to bubble her, to keep the universe safe.

Not yet.

The ships surrounding Adam Amari are now on their way to her, pulled by the relentless gravitational power she emits.

Not YET.


Freed from the need to constantly defend himself, Adam can focus on building bigger and bigger gadgets. He thinks he can pop the bubbles of about 8% of the ships here with what he’s building. After that - well, running away is still viable.

He’s still convinced this isn’t a battle he can win.

Well. Claiming victory is what the Coordinators do, right? It stands to reason they’d just throw enough force at this problem to do that for real.

William and Jaycee materialize in space. Neither have any kind of flight power, so they’re basically bobbing in place.

William waves. Jaycee smiles.

“What are you guys doing here?” Adam demands.

“Keri came for you. So we followed,” Jaycee explains.

William looks up and out into space, seeing the enormity of the fleet arrayed here. He sees Dentry, the mysterious coordinator. And he sees Adam, furiously cooking up cosmic clockwork weapons.

“Excalibur isn’t supporting you this time,” he says at last, and Adam remembers the battle at the temple when he and William fused.

“Guess that was a one time thing, huh?” Adam asks with a weak smile. “Truth is, I really could use Excalibur right now.”

William smiles back. “If it’s not here for you… that means the sword thinks you got this on your own,” he says firmly.

Adam can’t imagine how he’d respond to that.

All he can manage is a weak, wobbly smile and a word of caution. “Hey, it’s kinda blasty and stuff out here right now. You better check back in later.”

The pair nod, and disappear.

Adam is about 75% through building his dingus when someone arrives that he absolutely did not expect. It’s Jordan - no, properly it’s Princess Peri, in her full regalia and armed with her Continuum Sword. But it’s somehow not Peri either. She’s older, more mature, more confident. And she no longer looks like Jordan imagines herself combined with Summer, her template for princess-themed superheroics.

This Peri looks like an adult Jordan.

“How… are you here?” Adam manages to ask.

The woman smiles back at him, a mixture of loving warmth and cheerful smugness that is the essence of Jordan’s sisterly bond with Adam.

“I’m here because Jordan made a wish,” Peri explains. “And I’m here to tell you a story about Sailor Moon.”

Adam isn’t sure how any of this makes sense, but he’s listening.

“Sailor Galaxia sealed the great evil Chaos inside of herself. But it was too much. Chaos corrupted her. And when Sailor Moon confronts her, Galaxia explains her motives. But Sailor Moon can see where she made her mistake. She asks Galaxia a question.”

Peri approaches. “‘Why would you ever try to do something like that on your own?’”

She smiles at Dentry, and in the direction where Keri’s struggles are visibly warping local space-time. Then she turns back to Adam, with a small frown on her face.

“Adam… you think that you have to do it. That you have to protect people. That if you don’t, you’ll be letting us down.”

Behind her, the Right Honorable Quinnar Gentry materializes.

And behind him, more and more of the Dark Drifters begin to appear.

Behind them, more and more of the Children of Night, including faces Adam remembers from the temple.

Peri leans close, and kisses Adam on the forehead before looking him in the eye.

“You’ll always do it. I know. I love you for that, brother. But it doesn’t have to be just you. Don’t ever choose to be alone.”

With that said, and before Adam can possibly respond, she winks out of existence.

Quinnar, meanwhile, has flown over to Coordinator Dentry. “Brother! You came. I knew it!”

Adam’s emotions were already on a rollercoaster. That word causes the car to leap off the rails. “Brother?!”

Gentry and Dentry turn simultaneously at Adam’s confused squeak. Quinn looks at the Coordinator, then back in honest surprise. “Well the translation is not exact, our species has-- ah, this is not the time for that, is it.”

He gestures behind him, at the growing army of the Concordance’s enemies. “You are probably wondering what it will cost you to repay the aid of everyone here. Well, I can assure you that it will be very affordable. I’ve put in a good word for you and everyone is having a really rollicking time watching the Coordinators experience a setback!”

Adam struggles to form words. “You-- but-- where-- how?”

Quinn just beams. But it’s not that dazzling, boastful smile he’s shown many times before. This is… well. It’s hard to explain. All Adam can think of is “sincere”.

Quinn can see Adam’s confusion, and pats him on the shoulder. “You need to tell us how we can help you, little man, or we will all just stand here watching you gawk at us.”

This brings Adam back to his senses. “Right! Ah- I have some devices–”

He explains what he’s got, as briefly as he can. If the ships’ bubbles pop, they’ll freeze in time. He doesn’t know what comes after that, as far as his plan goes. All his assumptions were invalidated when the Coordinators sent an alien war-fleet after him, rather than coming to confront him themselves. But for now, he can do this.

As the Children replicate his ephemeral gadgetry for themselves and prepare to use it en masse, Adam flags down Quinn and his brother.

“Why are the two of you helping me?” he asks in earnest confusion. “And… not to be blunt, but aren’t you guys enemies of each other?”

Coordinator Dentry answers first, with a compassionate smile. “Some would say that my brother is a misguided, pompous fool who sought power like what was given to me to fulfill a childish rivalry.”

Quinn elbows the Coordinator and frowns. “That’s you, you fraudulent priest! You say those things!”

The Coordinator’s smile doesn’t waver. And what he says next feels unlike anything Adam has ever heard from a Coordinator before. “But how can there be concordance in our universe if a man should hate his brother?”

One of the Dark Drifters calls out. “Quinn! I think we’re ready!”

Quinn punches Coordinator Gentry on the arm, then turns to Adam. “You seem to hate the idea of boasting and claiming titles and pride and all other such matters. But now is the time to grow up a little. Put on a suitably ostentatious hat, and give the word.”

Adam can’t quite manage a hat. But he can rise up above the assembled throng of space warriors, and project his thoughts to all of them.

“I… We aren’t here to win against the Concordance. One of them is here helping out, actually. What we’re here to do is…”

He looks around, from face to face. He can feel Keri’s growing agony, even from so far away. He can’t spend forever on this.

Leo Snow, telling him “connection is strength”.

Jason Quill, never giving up on his mortal enemy Alycia.

Charlotte Palmer, never confusing propriety with conformity.

Harry Gale, taking the best of his parents and rejecting the worst.

“We’re here because giving up on people is wrong. Doesn’t matter who they are. Doesn’t matter what greater good we think there is…”

He can feel his own fear bubbling into the containment vessel, and knows that this too is a challenge he must confront.

“… Doesn’t matter how afraid we are. We all deserve better. So we’re gonna see it done.”

Somber’s home planet needs his help. No - everyone’s help. It doesn’t matter how justified the Concordance thinks it is.

“Spread out,” he orders. “Use the gizmos to pop every bubble around every ship you see.”

Hundreds of glowing lights stream outward into the vast blackness of space.

One by one…

Ten by ten…

Hundred by hundred…

Ships freeze. Every crew member board them halts in mid-motion, as the protective bubbles collapse under the assault.

It’s the unthinkable.

It’s victory.

Adam exults.

And in the midst of his uncontrollable jubilation, a fear too big to be contained takes hold of him as he apprehends something new happening.

The nexus of cruelty that was growing at the heart of Somber’s home world suddenly has access to the hostile emotions of a million sentient beings. The Concordance bubbles also isolated the war fleets’ collective feelings from it, as a minor side effect of their main function. But no longer.

It is unthinkably slow, to be sure. But as inescapable as Keri’s gravity field, the core of the Devil Planet has begun to attract the hate, the loathing, and the fury of the fugitive aliens the Coordinators sent here to deal with Adam. It will absorb their emotions, feed on the power offered to it, and grow.

He was so clever to bring his little show trial here, wasn’t he.

He was going to put one over on the Coordinators, with the whole universe watching.

The poetic beauty of it had been intoxicating to him. Just bring all these things together, solve everyone’s problems, go home and have milkshakes.

He hadn’t considered this at all.

And now it’s all he can think about.

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Adam can’t fight against a whole planet.

The whole idea defies reason. He has no idea what to do, or what he even could do. It feels like an avalanche or a flood back on Earth - an event, not an enemy, something too big to struggle against, something that can only be survived or endured.

The Dark Drifters and the allies they brought don’t have to be told to leave. They do, in a hurry. Yet while they can also sense what’s happening, they seem generally cheerful about their role in the event.

Adam can’t understand why. He can’t process the magnitude of his mistake, bringing this battle here and waking up the sleeping spirit at the heart of the doomed planet. Didn’t he screw everything up? Doesn’t everyone see that?

Not everyone has left. Keri is still here, at the center of a space-time distortion.

Only now, that the threat of the war-fleet isn’t hanging over him, does Adam really appreciate the magnitude of what she did. She created a localized black hole around herself. She drew in every single ship, giving Adam and the others time to break their bubbles… And now she’s still in there.

Maybe trapped in there, he thinks. He can’t leave until he knows for sure.

He streaks toward the distortion zone, strengthening his personal barrier to resist its effects. He’s already dangerously low on power from his exertions. And the industrial-strength Concordance container, full of his fear, makes him feel like one of those movie prisoners with a chain and iron ball on his ankle.

He passes the first of many, many ships. The vessels are frozen in the moment of their fall toward the heart of the black hole. The occasional portholes or windows allow a view inside. Adam can see the faces of the crew in tableau. Minutes ago they were trying to kill him. Now they’re furious or confused. Mouths are still open as captains shout orders and crews respond. Hands are caught in the moment of reaching for afterburners or overrides.

He’s forced to dodge and weave between ships as they increase in number. More than once, gravitational eddies and space-time turbulence threaten to send him crashing into one of them - or pull two of them together to smash him like a bug. It’s increasingly nerve-wracking, and feeling competes with his growing terror of the Planet of Dread for his full attention.

Increasingly, the ships themselves show signs of being crumpled by the enormous gravity. The faces he sees through the portholes are no longer frozen in anger. They’re terrified.

He approaches the center, struggling to maintain his position against the power of the black hole.

At this point, Keri is nothing more than a humanoid silhouette. It’s not merely black. It’s worse than that. It’s like somebody took scissors to space-time, and cut a Keri-shaped hole in it. Within that outline, there’s just… nothing.

He reaches out with his power, trying to connect with her. But even telepathic contact is reduced to noise here at the nucleus of the distortion. One of the universe’s fundamental forces is being matched against another, to no effect.

Earlier, Adam didn’t know what to do with his fear. But now that he has so much of it, perhaps the only thing he has left, he’s forced to confront it.

He dumps an enormous amount of emotional energy into nearby space, hoping and praying that it gets through.

Keri, I need you right now. I’m afraid. I’m really afraid all this is going to go very badly for everyone. And I’m really afraid that you’ve gone too far in trying to help me. I’m afraid of everything, and the only thing that will help me is if you come out of there.

He waits, terrified, as the Planet of Dread absorbs all the hate in the surrounding space and grows stronger.

He waits, impatient, frustrated, guilty as hell for dragging his friends into this mess. His mess, he thinks of it, in spite of everything.

The void silhouette shatters. The Lamb emerges, half-conscious. Adam catches her in his arms.

“I heard you,” she whispers to him, weak as anything.

“I called you,” Adam responds the most reassuring smile he can manage at this point, which isn’t much.

Keri reaches up a hand, trying to touch Adam’s cheek. “You’re okay…?”

Adam takes her hand in his, and guides it to its destination so she can feel the reassuring warmth she’s looking for. “I’m okay. But we have to go. I’ll take care of it.”


Adam’s Void Key leads the two of them out of the time-locked region. But he can’t quite properly navigate. His own emotions are too out of whack for him to make a solid connection to anything. Right now what he wants is home - light and life and family - and the Negamatrix through which he travels is built on the very opposite of everything he needs.

He emerges into the midst of a green-tinted nebula. And he’s not alone - several vessels are here, hovering in place to form an outer perimeter.

He recognizes after a moment that he’s also in a giant-sized Concordance bubble, built to maintain life support and atmosphere.

A few moments after he arrives, several Coordinators flash into existence in front of him. Among them is Coordinator Dentry. And suddenly Adam realizes what is going on.

The lead Coordinator, a humanoid alien who resembles a humanoid hawk with four enormous eyes, towers over Adam. “I am Coordinator Traptor. We are here to review your recent Tribunal.”

Adam sighs. He knows what this is. He failed, and now the Coordinators will punish him.

That’s how life works, isn’t it. That’s why it’s better to buckle down and just follow instructions, isn’t it. It’s like how Honor or Truth are just things that happen in the universe. It’s one of those kinds of things.

Traptor opens with the good news. “You have uncovered important information about the loss of Concordance Shards. This is commendable. It has been decided that the Coordinators of the Concordance will continue the investigation.”

They’ll learn about the Dread Moor. They’ll go to Earth. They’ll take control.

Adam just doesn’t know what to do at this point.

He feels Keri stirring.

“Hey,” he calls to Traptor. “My friend is weak. I’m worried about her.”

Coordinator Dentry, Quinn’s brother, speaks up. But not to Traptor - to Adam. “Is it alright if I look after her?” he asks, in a gentle voice.

He didn’t even look to the other Coordinators, Adam realizes.

“Yeah,” he says after a moment.

As Dentry escorts Keri away to one of the waiting ships, Traptor resumes his speech.

“You have been working with a Concordance Agent named Somber. This individual is not satisfied with our handling of certain affairs. We believe they are attempting to corrupt you via selective exposure to information. Shall we show you the truth?”

Adam isn’t sure how much he can trust anything right now. But Somber has been suspicious too. Why not?

Traptor takes his nod as agreement. “Call up the records,” he orders, and a holographic projection appears in the empty space around them.

Adam recognizes the interface. It’s the same as the emotional containment vessel on Earth, the one that was near overflowing.

He watches the records of the containment vessel from Somber’s homeworld. Three Agents, none of them Somber but all of them from the same species, confer quietly amongst themselves.

Adam can hear the translation of their conversation with each other.

“We’re sacrificing our home planet!”

“The universe has to know. Besides, we evacuated our families. They’ll be safe!”

“But what about everyone else?”

“When the Coordinators come fix this, everyone will be fine.”

And Adam watches in horror as the leader of the trio orders the safeties disengaged on the containment vessel.

He knows what came next.

The projection vanishes, and Traptor watches Adam with his multiple oversized eyes. Finally the Coordinator fills the silence.

“I believe that you would say, ‘they brought this on themselves’.”

Adam tries to feel something. Some indignation, some justification.

“You should still help them,” he says, more weakly than he wanted to.

“We did,” Traptor says in a level tone. “Is your accusation that we did not help them the way you want us to?”

“You left that containment vessel on their planet!”

Traptor tilts his head, staring more closely at Adam. “You are using a similar containment vessel for yourself, right now. You have filled it with your own fear during the confrontation with the war armada. How will you dispose of its contents?”

This is exactly the worst question Traptor could have asked Adam, and they both know it.

“I don’t know,” Adam whispers.

Traptor takes a long breath. Adam knows what that means. It means he’s going to hear “I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed” from an adult.

“Your courage, creativity, and dedication to the well-being of others is commendable, Agent Amari. Indeed, were it not for your lack of foresight and teamwork, we might say you have the makings of a Coordinator in the fullness of time.”

“Unfortunately you have failed in critical ways and put the lives and safety of others at risk on numerous occasions. This business necessitates the personal intervention of experienced Coordinators, for example.”

Traptor’s head tilts again, an impassive and emotionless gesture, more like he’s studying some bizarrely shaped object than confronting a real person. “You have asserted your right to make decisions on weighty matters. That judgement has been found wanting. Now, perhaps, you will demonstrate better judgement in your own case. What ought you do at this moment that would benefit the Concordance, and the universe?”

Adam, already thinking about his father, is reminded of the meme from cop shows. The Chief is busting the Cowboy Cop in his office, and demands “turn in your gun and your badge!”

Adam feels like that’s what this is leading to. They want to save face. They want him to resign.

Isn’t that what he’s always wanted? To be out of this?

He felt this way when he went to Earth, and he felt the camaraderie of his friends. That support gave him the strength to keep going, and try to solve the problems he knew about.

And then he fucked it all up.

He tries to formulate a Coordinator-type reply. The same empty platitudes and wise-sounding bullshit he keeps hearing from them.

“I would want to balance the virtues you highlighted with the need to avoid doing further harm,” he says. “At this moment I am not well suited to make such an important decision. And weighty matters demand thorough consideration. I would therefore say that the best thing I can do is take time to evaluate the matter.”

The Coordinators briefly and subtly nod at each other.

Adam feels goaded into all of this somehow. Tricked. The Coordinators were right here, and able somehow to pull him out of the Negamatrix and into this conversation. What else might have they done? He asks the one question that’s been nagging at him.

“My sister is back on Earth. She got a Shard of her own. And I saw her project herself out here to me, and try to give me some kinda encouragement. But her Shard was deactivated a long time ago, by the person who gave it to her. So it can’t have been her. Did you guys make her show up here? If you did, why would you do that?”

The Coordinators glance at each other briefly.

Traptor speaks, and Adam can feel the Truth of his words. “We do not know what you are referring to, Agent. Perhaps you are confused.”

Perhaps, thinks Adam. But he’s run out of every resource he has. He can’t even think about this one thing any more.

“I’m gonna go check on my friend. And then we’re gonna leave. Unless you guys are gonna bubble me or something.”

Traptor nods his head slowly. “That measure is not indicated at this time.”

The alien’s voice changes, and for the first time in this whole conversation, Adam feels the slightest hint of real emotion from him. “Go home, Agent.”


Keri is resting in the medical bay of one of the nearby ships. Coordinator Dentry is sitting nearby.

Inside Adam’s heart, a few embers of anger still burn.

“Did you come to set me up?” he asks Dentry.

“Set you up…?” The alien processes the meaning of Adam’s words, then extends his hand. A locus of energy forms there, and Adam can feel it radiating Truth. “I came because my brother asked me to come help you. He asked everybody he knew, I believe. I love my brother. And if helping you was something important to him, I wanted to be a part of it.”

Adam doesn’t know what to say, or how he would say it. He just wants to cry. “Thank you. For taking care of Keri. And for helping me,” he finally manages.

Dentry beams, and goes back to his meditations as Adam goes to see about Keri.

She looks up at him with half-closed eyes, and smiles in clear relief.

“So you created a black hole. And it held all those ships. Thousands of ships.”

Her voice croaks as she speaks. “Y-yeah.”

A joke comes to his thoughts, out of absolutely nowhere, and he says it before he can really think it through. “Your powers really ‘suck’, huh?”

Keri bursts out laughing. It clearly hurts, and the laughter turns to coughing as she clutches her ribs for a moment. But as it subsides, Adam is grateful to see that she’s still smiling.

“Yeah. But you gotta admit they make me really… attractive.”

It’s Adam’s turn to chuckle. He’s relieved that she’s feeling well enough to match his bad jokes.

Her eyes glance over to where Dentry sits, and she looks back at him. “How’d the inquisition go?”

“I think they want me to quit,” Adam admits.

Keri’s eyes move rapidly, as she studies his features, trying to read his emotions from them. “You gonna do it?” she asks at last.

“I mean they kinda have a point about a couple things,” he shrugs. “And I think I made things a lot worse. And I tried to be Clever Little Adam again and do my trial thing without asking any of you for help. Even when it was you guys that gave me the courage to do it to begin with.”

Keri takes this in. And she reaches down with a hand, and finds one of Adam’s hands, and takes hold. “You know that whatever you do, you got me on your side, right?”

Adam tries to smile, and feels his lips tremble as the pent-up sorrow inside his heart asks for release. “You always got me too, you know. Even if I’m just Adam and not, y’know, Agent Amari or Concordance Prisoner 24601 or whatever.”

She lets out a sigh and relaxes onto the medical bay’s padded bed. “Something from space comes and always messes stuff up for the two of us, huh?” she asks at last.

“Yeah. Seems like it.”

She draws in a few more breaths, and opens her eyes as wide as they’ll go. “Adam. Answer me a question. It’s really important to me. Okay?”

He isn’t sure what the question will be, but this sounds serious. “Yeah. Of course.”

Her eyes find his again, and he feels the weight on her soul through those eyes as she asks her question.

“We didn’t ask for this stuff. These space guys came, and… they just changed us. And it hurts when we do what we do. So how can you be so okay with it?”

It’s a challenge to him, he feels. Be more aggressive. Push back against these alien jerks. But it’s also a yearning to understand. How do I survive this, the way you have?

“I don’t know,” he says.

But the question demands more, and he finally relents.

“But I will try to give you a proper answer, when I can. I promise.”

Keri squeezes Adam’s hand. She doesn’t have much strength, but she’s sharing what she has with him. Like she always does, he thinks.

“I’ll take you back to Earth,” he offers. “Unless you want to hang around on a spaceship.”

Keri’s smile is weak, but it’s still there. “They don’t have homemade sancocho on spaceships. And I’m hungry. Let’s go home, Adam.”

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Azlan de Borja y Velasco, the Dread Moor, is relaxing in his study. He is reading “Things Fall Apart” by Chinua Achebe at the moment the servitor materializes.

“The next phase of the Vessel’s construction is complete, master,” the creature hisses. “It is ready for you to bestow the enchantment.”

Velasco reaches for his bookmark, places it neatly between the pages to mark his place, closes the book, and sets it on the side table next to his seat. Only then does he acknowledge the servitor with a curt nod as he rises.

His recent attempts to contact his existing alien partners have failed. They were captured or destroyed, he supposes. So be it. He has other avenues of getting what he wants. These curious “Shards” from space, for example, are somehow invested in living beings. More amusing to him, they take the form of swords for some such individuals. That woman, for example. Ambra Nerach? She had her own allies from the stars. Velasco contacted a select few of them via occult means. And in time, one of them responded.

Now that individual has come to Earth to meet with him.

As Velasco tours the facilities containing the Vessel, this visitor walks with him. “We participated in the attack against the Concordance’s war-fleet with that human boy, Adam Amari. It was successful - but something about it awoke some great darkness within the nearby planet. Now we fear retribution from the Concordance. And you say you can help us with this?”

Velasco’s smile is faint. It hides much, offering reassurance but revealing nothing beyond that. “The creation you see before you is a means to harness that power of darkness. When I am ready, it will be a force in potency as far above your ‘Continuum Swords’ as those swords are above ordinary metal blades.”

What Velasco and the alien visitor are looking at isn’t a simple forge or anvil, although they serve the same sort of function. The Vessel is nothing less than a set of machines to forge emotional power into new shapes, each one bearing complex enchantments and empowered by sorcerous workings. If Adam Amari were to see it, he would recognize it as a magical version of his own affective gadgets, albeit far more sophisticated.

Velasco explains the basic workings, in just enough detail to persuade his visitor of his qualifications to master the power of darkness that has terrified everyone else. He completes his more technical explanations with a simple summary. “The entity is driven by its emotions. It has no focus for them. It hates, but has nothing and nobody to hate. Its cruelty demands expression yet it has no conception of its victims. The Vessel will yield a heart of darkness that will give these motivations the necessary focus. Through that heart, the entity will serve my will.”


Adam wakes up on the couch at the Maldonado household.

One of Keri’s siblings is sitting in a wooden chair, staring intently at him. As Adam shows signs of consciousness, the child shouts down the hallway more loudly than his lanky frame should be capable of supporting. “Mama! El extraño niño espacial está despierto!”

Keri’s mother bustles in. She was doing laundry and still has unfolded clothes piled up on one forearm. “Ah! Young Adam Amari! I called your parents.”

Adam sits up, almost falls, and tries again more carefully. He blinks away the sleepies, and digs his knuckles into the corners of his eyes to get at the remainder. He’s sort of remembering what happened… “I brought Keri here, and then…”

“You collapsed! We were so worried about you. Your mother and father, they said it would be okay to let you stay here, and to call them when you were awake - oh, do you have a phone?”

Adam feels in his pocket for his cell phone. It’s been to space and across star systems with him, but now on Earth it should have service again. Unfortunately, the battery has lost charge. He’s had so much else to think about.

He smiles apologetically. “I forgot to charge it. Sorry to make trouble for you.”

Keri’s mother will have none of it. “Ay, it is perfectly okay! Carisa, you know, she spends far too much time on her phone. I think it’s better for you to take time from your little screens and look at the big world around you, eh? So think of this as an opportunity!”

As she bustles back off, presumably to call his parents, Adam reflects on that. He’s had way too much of the big world around him recently, he thinks. A little screen time might have been nice. For example, he remembers this one interesting thread on his social media feed…

The little boy is still staring at him. Adam looks back at him. He checks his still-hazy memory. “You’re… Mano? Is that what Keri called you?”

“Mano means brother,” the boy answers. But he doesn’t give his name either.

Adam isn’t sure what to make of this. “Uh… can I ask you what your name is?” he tries, politely enough.

“Yeah you can ask,” the boy concedes, and sniffs.

Adam frowns. “Uh… Okay. What is your name?”

“Not gonna tell ya.” The boy smiles suddenly, exposing a mouth full of teeth - except for two that he’s lost, in the process of growing up. Adam is at least familiar with this part, since Jordan has been transitioning out of her own baby teeth for awhile.

“Can I ask you why not?”

“You can ask.”

“Okay. Please tell me.”

“Tell you what?”

Adam is losing a bit of his patience. “Tell me why you won’t tell me your name.”

“Cause mana always worries about you and is always coming home and crying when you’re in danger and stuff. I’m her brother so I gotta look out for her. So you get my name when you apologize for hurtin’ her.”

Adam folds his hands in his lap and hangs his head.

Keri’s mother swings by again, having traded her laundry for a bowl of stew. She presses it into Adam’s hands, and smacks the boy on the back of the head. “Raphael! I heard! Be polite to our guest!”

She turns to Adam, ready to apologize for a child’s rude behavior, but Adam quickly shakes her head before she can speak. “He’s right. I’ve not been as good to Keri as I could have been. She’s really put a lot on the line for me.”

He turns to Raphael. “I want to protect your sister from as much harm as I could. She feels the same about me, though. So we end up getting into trouble trying to keep each other safe. It’s not easy and I wish it didn’t hurt us both so much. But she’s my friend and I’d do anything in the world to make things better for her.”

Raphael listens to this, open mouthed. Finally his jaw snaps shut with an audible click. “‘Kay. So listen, Adam. I’m sorry I was rude for tellin’ ya the truth.”

Adam smiles. “Thank you for telling me the truth. So since I apologized, can I have your name?”

He’s already heard it, of course. He just wants to be polite.

The boy thinks about it. Finally he puffs himself up. “I’m Raphael Maldonado. I’m named for a Saint, so be respectful.”

Adam nods with a polite smile. “Thank you, Raphael. I will.”

Keri’s mother has indulged her son’s caprice long enough, from the look of it. She hauls Raphael off his chair with a powerful grip on one forearm. “Ay! Adam’s stew is going to get cold. Let him eat.” She looks back. “Adam, your parents will be over soon. Carisa is asleep in her room, but I will tell her what happened. Okay?”

Adam smiles up, and reaches for the spoon. “Okay. Thank you, ma’am.”


The ride home is quiet. Mom and dad both say the reassuring words. They offer to stop at Curry Favor, but Adam explains he ate. Suspecting that what he ate was probably spicy, they offer ice cream. Adam, realizing that his tongue is still tingling from Mrs. Maldonado’s stew, thinks that sounds good.

Adam goes directly to his room. He doesn’t want to talk to Jordan, because he might ask her about the whole Princess Peri thing in space, and he really doesn’t want to think about space right now.

In his room, laying on his bed, staring at his ceiling, he makes a decision.

“Tau… Discontinue functions until tomorrow morning at 8am.”

Understood.

With the voice in his head no longer there, Adam chooses to just be a 15 year old boy, laying in his bedroom in the family home. He knows the world out there is still happening, but he’s going to shut it out. He’s going to play pretend, and tell himself it’s not. He’s just going to be ordinary for a little bit, because otherwise he couldn’t go on.

He lays there, and thinks about something else.

His parents have always been so supportive. Yet he’s always felt like he’s been asked to do so much. He’s always felt the weight of responsibility on his shoulders.

Why?

There’s the charitable answer.

He has a lot of potential. Objectively speaking, he’s taken high school classes way earlier than most kids. He excelled at the lessons, he tested well, he knows the material.

He’s done a good job keeping his room clean and organized.

He’s taken care of Jordan, even when she was being some flavor of difficult, which was all the time. She’s a wonderful kid sister, but she keeps running off to do stuff and he has to keep running after her.

So maybe the answer is that people just keep loading him up, because he can carry it all and he never said no.

That’s the charitable answer and it still fucking sucks.

Adam didn’t really have a rebellious phase growing up. Maybe it’s time for one, he wonders.

Briefly, he wonders what it would be like to join Quinnar Gentry and his Dark Drifters. They could all go hang out in space and just be cool and whatever it is those guys do.

Adam has to admit he’s still not sure what they actually do.

That feels like it might get boring.

He imagines himself here on Earth, wearing a leather jacket and greasing his hair back like a 1950’s-era rebel from the movies. I’m too short for that, he tells himself.

He imagines himself being surly and combative, like Leo was when they first met. He can’t really be that either, though, can he.

What he definitely doesn’t want to do is just mope around, like early Jason.

His phone, newly charged up, tells him he’s got a message.

It’s Keri.

He starts to read.

Adam, whatever happened out there, I know you did your best–

Adam throws the phone across the room, and turns over on the bed to face down.

The one thing he does not need right now is any encouragement.

He came to Earth depressed. His friends got him all hyped up again. And he went into space and did his cool Tribunal thing and fucked everything up for everyone.

No. No more encouragement.

This time, he’s going to do the smart thing, the thing he should have done.

He’s going to stop listening to people who say to believe in himself. That he has potential. That he can do it.

It never, ever works out.

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The fear is still clinging to him.

Literally.

Well - not physically literally. It’s Concordance emotion technology, so it’s sort of ephemeral and invisible, but tangible if–

Adam scowls as he enters the ratty, run-down gym where William Eddison said to meet.

He’s still carrying so many weights and he just wants to be rid of all of them.

Keri’s question is unanswered. “How can you be okay with it?” With what the Concordance turned him into, an Agent and unwitting spokesperson for their authority.

The thing is, he’s not okay with it. He’s just never had the voice to say so. Or he’s had it all along, and he chose not to speak, because he was just too accommodating.

He hates both options for different reasons.

Traptor’s challenge awaits a response. “How will you dispose of the negative emotions you accumulated?”

There’s really only one right way to do that, isn’t there? You do what emotions demand you do. You feel them.

So here he is, to push a question onto the superhero Armiger, the guy who never seems to feel any kind of fear. The guy who has non-stop access to a holy sword that Adam was granted only a few minutes of time to hold. What does that say about the two of them, eh?

The question pushes his self-pity away with its insistence. How do you survive experiencing such fear?

William is boxing in one corner. His target is a set of punching bags hanging from a metal support system. The bags are made of a durable material with an embedded sensor web. A digital readout nearby gives the user a sense of how hard they’re hitting, and can even show an outline of the fist as it strikes. Just another perk of living in a dangerous, high-tech, superhero-centered city, Adam supposes.

Jaycee is reading a magazine. Every so often she’ll look up, note the results on the digital display, and counsel William what he should be doing different.

The vibe immediately aggravates Adam. Today is not a good day for anyone to be telling anyone what they should be doing right.

There’s a few other folks here in the gym, of all ages and apparent genders. Some are exercising on machines. Some are sparring in a boxing ring at the center of the room. A few are warming up or down, drinking protein shakes or listening to music on headphones or whatever. They all give off a common vibe, and Adam briefly wonders what this gym is for.

William notices him, and breaks off the practice to wave at him and jog over. He’s still sweaty, despite being dressed in boxing trunks and a loose-fitting, sleeveless undershirt. Adam envies the ripple of muscle that accompanies every movement. And me still waiting for my growth spurt. The only time I get to be tall and cool is when I transform.

Adam briefly explains the situation that led to his problem. And he tries to find a way to ask the question he wants to ask, without sounding like a serious loser.

“So… I’ve got all this built-up fear. It has to go somewhere. That somewhere has to be through me, or I’m the same kind of jerk as the Coordinators. And it’s not healthy to just store it up, but in this case it’s like I’m lugging around emotional pollution too. So - anyway–”

Jaycee has gotten up from her magazine, and walked over to listen in. Adam is still somehow resentful, even though she hasn’t said or done anything directly to him.

He looks up, and just lets himself be 15, because he doesn’t know any other way right now. “What do I do?”

William thinks about this, chin in hand. “I think I know what to do,” he says at last.

Well thank god somebody does.

Too bad what William says next pushes Adam hard.

“We’re gonna work together. We’ll be here with you, helping–”

Adam’s face contorts into an angry scowl. “Weren’t you listening? Getting other peoples’ help is how I got into this. I’m not doing that.”

He gets even angrier as he hears Jaycee ask a question. “If getting help is so bad, why are you here?”

Adam turns and almost starts striding out. He feels the strong grip of William’s hand around his forearm, holding him back. And he hears William’s voice, first to Jaycee. “This isn’t the time for that. Go get some protein shakes and gym gear. He’s going to be sweating through this. And ask Ahmed to unlock one of the rooms.”

As Jaycee leaves, William pulls Adam around to look at him. The muscular man studies his young friend carefully, and smiles. “A good trainer only puts as much weight on the barbell as you can handle. And everyone has a spotter, no matter how much they lift. She was out of line, but she’s got a point. What you just told me? You need support for this. And you know it. Don’t you.”

Adam hates that he’s right. But isn’t that why he came here? He jerks his arm free of William’s grasp, and knows that William chose to let go. But he nods.

William gestures toward one wall of the room, where a series of doors connect the main gym to smaller side rooms. The manager is already unlocking one of those rooms, and Jaycee stands beside him with clothes and shakes in hand.

Adam can finally get over his anger enough to ask. “What… are we gonna do, working together I mean?”

William looks back with steely eyes, but a smiling mouth. “We’re going to face that fear.”


Adam has been allowed privacy to change. His clothes are now neatly folded and sitting on a bench. He knocks on the door to the gym to let them know he’s ready.

William enters, and Jaycee follows. In addition to the protein shakes, she’s brought towels and water. She sets them down, quietly nods to Adam with an apologetic look on her face, and leaves.

She knows she upset me, he thinks. It helps him feel a little better.

William drags in a chair and sits down on it, next to the bench. Adam sits next to him.

With a flash, Excalibur appears. William takes Adam’s hand and guides it to rest on the cross guard, with his own hand on the grip.

“Feel your fear, Adam,” William says softly. “I’ll share it. Stop when you can’t handle any more.”

Adam looks at his friend, already afraid even without tapping into the contained emotions he’s been lugging around. Wait, what? It’s too much–

William can read Adam’s hesitation, and smiles. “Relax. That’s why you came to me, isn’t it,” he says, almost reading Adam’s mind. “I’m fearless. Except I’m not. I’m just experienced in handling it.”

Adam realizes his breathing has sped up, and fights to control it. Finally, he relents. He can do this. “Okay.”

He lets in a tiny drop of the pent-up fear. And it’s agonizing, as he relives the experience.

So many ships - so many weapons - so many enemies. His memories tie the ships back to the first time he got a Shard, when the Blockheads came for him. He felt so powerless, as aliens fought to take away a power he’d only just been given. Every sci-fi movie he’s seen, where fleets of ships are ultra-powerful – every video he’s seen of the Navy, with aircraft carriers and destroyers and cruisers – every gun discharging – outer space, lit up with a rainbow of death –

He feels, and feels, and feels. And he can sense William sharing in it, through a bond the sword creates. He doesn’t know how it works exactly, except that William can be a “king”, taking the burden of those around him in the name of honor.

Through that link he can feel William’s experience of the same fear. Battling demons – fighting villains, while armed with nothing but a sword – facing senior Grail Knights in combat – hearing stories of the knights of old, and the creatures they fought –

His heart is pounding. His skin is sweaty. He can feel his muscles trembling, as they keep tensing in preparation to fight or flee whatever danger provoked this fear. His gut twists into knots.

Finally he cuts off the feed of fear. It’s been manageable, if awful - but he can feel William taking more and more of the fear onto himself, and he doesn’t want to hurt his friend.

William, too, is sweating and scared. But when he senses the break, he looks down at Adam in curiosity.

“It’s too much for two people,” Adam manages. Jaycee cracks open the first of the water bottles, and helps him take a long drink.

“I know,” William says. He tries to stand up, wobbles, and finds Jaycee steadying him. He heads back out of the side room.

Adam despairs. That was it? That was only a tiny fragment of the fear vessel. That’s as far as they could get, and he’s already wrecked William?

A gray-haired man steps in, passing Wlliam on the way out. He takes his place in the chair. To Adam’s great surprise, Excalibur appears in his hand, and he does what William did - place Adam’s hand on the cross guard.

“Who…? What?” Adam asks in confusion.

“If you can endure it, keep going,” the man says. “I’ll bear the burden.”

“Who are you?”

The man smiles, exposing teeth stained by tobacco and coffee. “Gregor MacPherson. Grail Knight. Young William explained the situation already.”

Adam struggles to process this. “Why are you helping me, Mr. MacPherson?”

The smile widens. “You bore the sword, young man. You’re one of us.”

“I only held it for a few minutes.”

MacPherson’s brown eyes look into Adam’s. “Do you think that matters?”

I guess it doesn’t.

“Now, go ahead with whatever you were going to do.”

Adam takes a breath. The fear flows again.

Like before, he experiences everything he dreaded, everything he associated with that time, every bad thing he was so sure he was going to happen. Him, dismembered or dead, floating in space – his parents, mourning – Jordan, bawling her eyes out –

He can feel MacPherson’s fear through the link. Time spent as a soldier – black operations, performed in the dead of night, men with rifles – carnage in the streets of foreign cities – demons, feasting on the souls of the fallen – a sword, a mission, a promise –

Adam breaks off when he can’t handle any more. Jaycee is back, to mop his forehead and administer more water. This time, she offers some of the protein shake as well, and Adam drinks greedily.

The next visitor is a trim woman of indeterminate age named Pranpriya. She too has a sword. She too knows what is to come, and faces it without hesitation.

One by one, other Grail Knights at the gym take their turn enduring Adam’s fear. One by one, they carry most of the burden throughout the link.

Adam’s fear is being replaced by guilt. Who are these people, to carry what he bore?

Hours later, he finds himself waking up from a nap on the bench.

He staggers out, to find everyone waiting for him.

He struggles to find words, starts to speak. Gregor MacPherson, who can read his emotions off his face with no difficulty at all, cuts him off with a simple declaration. “It’s not just right for you to ask a fellow for help. It’s what you’re expected to do, soldier.”

Adam asks Tau to check the container.

Affective containment is at 0.0% of maximum capacity.

He doesn’t know the names of any emotion he’s feeling. He wants to smile and he wants to cry and he wants–

“I gotta get home,” he manages to say.

“I’ll give you a ride,” MacPherson offers.


The ride is mostly quiet.

Adam finally broaches a question. “Um, Mr. MacPherson…?”

“Gregor or Greg is fine. Or Mac if you like.”

Adam swallows. “What… what do you do when you’ve made some kinda horrible mistake, and lots and lots of people are gonna suffer for it?”

The old man thinks about this. “There’s two answers for us as Grail Knights. As soldiers, if something goes south on the mission, you keep doing the mission. You try to recover. But that’s why you send a team of soldiers. If a problem could be handled by one person, one person would have handled it. That ‘one riot one Ranger’ bullshit isn’t how things work.”

There’s a simplicity to that answer that Adam admires. But - he finds himself wishing, and realizes what he wishes for. Wouldn’t it be nice if all problems were smaller?

But MacPherson is still talking. “As for Grail Knights as kings…”

He looks over. “Do you understand what it means to be king?”

Adam thinks back to what William has said. “To fight, to lead, to rule. I guess… I guess I don’t understand the difference between those last two things.”

The gray-haired man grins. “Hah. It can take some aspirants a bit. Grunts, NCOs, whoever - lot of them are led around by their dicks and their hormones. In their own heads, everyone’s telling themselves the story about how they’re the main character. Leadership is about getting a group to see itself as a group. You can lead and not be the one giving orders.”

“Now rulership… that’s about authority. And that’s the right to give orders, and the responsibility to bear the weight of giving 'em. Wisdom to know what to do, courage to do it when you don’t know. To your question, sometimes the best thing a king can do after screwing the pooch hard is step down. Sometimes the king’s job is to stay king and see it fixed.”

Adam has a hard time separating the idea of leadership from authority. If you want something done, you tell people who have to listen to you to do it. That’s how parents and teachers work.

“Mr… uh, Mac. How do I know which of those things I should do?” he asks. “Step down, or stay?”

MacPherson sighs. “I’m gonna say a word that’s like poison to you young people. Too bad, 'cause it’s the truth. You learn that by experience.”

Adam sighs. The man is right, he really doesn’t like that answer. “What if I don’t have experience?”

That gets a laugh. “Ya listen to the people who do! That’s what the elders like me are for, young man. We’re the lived experience you don’t have. And you young folks are the second chances we always wanted. To feel like we finally made it right.”

Adam remembers what Somber asked him to do. Find a way to stop me.

They trusted me with the fate of their home planet, Adam thinks. And all I did was make everything worse.


Adam is home.

His parents woke up when they heard him come in, and he’d reassured them that he was hanging out with William and Jaycee at a gym. They fretted, but they let him go to his room.

He’s discharged his last obligation - the fear in the container. He did that with help, but he did it.

He remembers the day he fused with Armiger and Princess Peri, back on Orion Schema. He had realized what made Jordan so good at being a hero, the difference that separated them. She wanted it.

“Tau?”

Yes, Adam?

“I’m transferring you to my sister Jordan. I am no longer a Concordance Agent. You will take instructions from her. Inform her what happened when she wakes up.”

Understood.

He’s done this before - transferred a Shard to someone else. It’s not a simple thing, but he feels comfortable with the process.

And he lays down, and goes to sleep, feeling something he hasn’t felt in years.

Free.

The story of the Megaverse crew will conclude in “Universal Discordance”.

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