TO: Snow, Leo
FROM: Quill, Jason
SUBJECT: RE: Freaky Friday
I almost didn’t want to open this email this morning. This was … I’m trying to think of a pun for “insane” that implies an out of body experience, and it all sounds lame, so …
But I opened it first (sorry Agent Waters, sorry Mr Gale, sorry Tasha Starr, sorry Barbara). Because, yeah, probably ego to wonder what the guy who was riding around in my body is wanting to email me about so late-early.
Anyway, thanks. Thanks for not letting my body get eaten by a giant cat, etc. The weird thing was, I trusted you completely not to. I wouldn’t have just a short time ago, but having seen you really care about people – both your own immediate “family” and your teammates – makes me realize how strong that impulse is in you. It’s – well, really awesome.
So here’s something I’ve never said, and it’s kind of chickenshit to say it in an email, but if I wait until the right moment it might be months. So here it is: when everyone was talking about who should be in charge of the Menagerie (which is a fucking crazy name, but keeps feeling more and more right), I was sure they were going to vote for you, and that would have been fine with me. I didn’t want the job, I didn’t think I could do the job, and I thought you were the best pick, even if I didn’t completely trust you.
And while I actually think I can do the job now, which is kind of crazy in and of itself, I’m even more certain you’re the right person to really lead, whatever it says on the paperwork. Because you care, and you back that up with action and focus and dedication and proving yourself. I can’t imagine anything you would have said that would lead to problems. I just hope in return I haven’t ruined Charlotte’s reputation by making her some grim, grinning ghost.
Actually, I take something back – the only thing I was worried about when you were in my body in terms of your getting yourself/me injured or dead, was that you would do it in a heartbeat if it was necessary to save someone else, on the team or a civilian. And I would hate to lose my body and to lose you, even if I thought it was the right thing to do. In fact, I would be more worried that you wouldn’t save someone because you were being so careful of my body.
This is a crazy world you and I live in, ennit?
I’m freaking overjoyed over you and Pneuma being together. I mean, at the risk of sounding like a Pony, I’ve been shipping that for a while now. You are clearly so dedicated to each other that it’s been painful to watch. If I’ve had anything to do with that, it’s been a pleasure. Even if it’s been serving as a counter-example in how to have a healthy emotional relationship thing, because – well, yeah, we can go over that some time. I envy you, and am really happy for you. Don’t fuck it up. If I can help in any way, let me know.
About Numina – well, anything I can do for her, too, of course. I’ve had a weird relationship with AI over the past months, and another thing I have to confess was that I kind of thought your whole “making a set of toys to play with” thing was kind of weird. Which I put in quotes, because I was completely off-base. The people you have made are real in a way that I could never have dreamed of. I would say you’re a fricking genius, except that would seem to take away from their achievements, which is not what I would want to do.
Anything I can do for Numina, let me know. Or she can let me know. I mean, I’m not assuming anything her about me and Numina or you and Numina, or you and Pneuma and Numina, or anything. But she’s – well, if nothing else, hospitality laws: she’s under my roof, and I take that very seriously. I’ve got some shit to get in order to ensure some of that, but this whole experience has kind of – well, it’s weird, but being in someone else’s body has given me a chance to better appreciate some things. I’m going to try not to be such a freak show over some stuff going forward. We’ll see how that goes.
So, ha, you apologized for the long mail and here I am, twice the length. Because I talk too much, or so I’ve been told. I be ridiculous. It also be ridiculous that this sort of thing is easier to do in email than in person, but (a) asynchronous communication rocks, and (b) hey, post-Millennialism for the win.
Thanks for the note. Keep smiling, man.
Jason
[Apologies for Any Bad Grammar: Dictated with QTalk.]
author: *** Dave H.
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